Random thoughts:
Here I am lying in bed going to sleep after a night shift in the ER. All I want to do is stare at the adorable, sweet, wonderful man next to me. It's been several days on nights so I haven't had a face to face conversation with him in days, and I'm really missing him. It gives me a mixture of emotions including happiness to the point of tears when I think about our future together. I wonder what it would be like to have kids in the future; how did I end up with such a sweet and understanding man; what is he dreaming about now; what will we be like when we are both old; will we get to be old together? He looks so angelic gently snoring now (well...kind of getting louder now). So peaceful. Part of me is wondering if I'm being so overly rosy colored about everything and emotional now because of monthly hormones. Who knows. Perhaps.
Are you really mine? I still can't believe it. I'm sorry for my emotional breakdown earlier today. I appreciate how you said "I love you" even when I kind of woke you up earlier as I was getting in bed. Also for secretly doing the laundry and not mentioning it or seeking acknowledgement from me. I on the otherhand, definitely had times where I made sure you saw that I cleaned something or did a chore, making sure to seek appreciation and approval from you. I should learn from your humbleness and selflessness. Miss you!
